wow...its been a long time since i've written on here. guess i've just been writing on facebook a lot and in my journal or on my computer. i don't think i have anything super exciting to say really. just wanted to write something down.
i think i'm finding myself too scared to push foward in this leap of faith God has asked me to take. I look at my journal and carry it with me but I can't find the strength to finish the writing. now i'm looking at classes to learn how to read music...that way i can learn to play the piano or the quitar and put music to some of the writings of mine. its only day 9 of the new year and i think i know where this year is taking me....leaps of faith, no matter how small they may be are still giant leaps!
writing....music...my outlet for all the goodness God has shown me. its like i was created to write. but the things that take me longer than 15 minutes are challenging. normally i just spit it all out and there it is, something wonderful that touches people's lives. this new stage is different. its scary. its different. i don't know if i'm up to it. but i have to be. its God calling me to shine in the world, His world. but how? writing....music....movies....stories...life...writing. its all so new to me. 2010 is bound to show me where God wants me. He's bound to bless and prove to me that this is the right path or He's going to close it and open another one.
weird how the desires of my childhood are pushing their way back into my heart. only now there's no one telling me i can't. its up to me and God to accomplish what He wants. and there's no one around to tell me that i'm not good enough or that i have other things to worry about. i'm taking a chance on me...for once in my life. its weird but so good. 2010, you scare me!
