Wow, March 1st, 2010 already. It amazes me at how faithful God is.
I don't have much to say on here. Life has pretty much been smooth sailing. I've gotten a deeper look at how much love God has for His children. I have also been overcome with strong emotions - a small sample of the pain He feels when His children are hurt. My heart has been going deeper with Jesus and I'm beginning to truly fall in love with Him.
Being a human and being in love with the idea of love has gotten in my way of actually loving my Jesus. I listen to my friends who have decent, if not wonderful, relationships with their husbands and I know that I am in no position to be in that type of relationship right now. My mind is filled with just having a man to be my life's partner, but my heart and soul knows that my life partner is Jesus.
And so during this Lenten season, I am focusing on Him and not the "day dreams" of being in love with a man. I want to be in love with God. I want Him to be all I need to be happy. Once my heart is that lost in Him, I know the "desires" of my humanness will be met in such an abundant way.
I'm also going deeper in my walk of faith. Taking small steps that are actually gigantic steps in my mind. I want to just follow His direction and let Him take care of the outcome. Whatever step I take, He needs to be the One to tell me to take it. All I can control is my obedience and He will do the blessing (whatever that looks like) afterwards.
I am loving 2010 so far. Sure there's things that I wish I had in my humanness but these past two months have been such an amazing journey with my God that I wouldn't change anything - expect how much time I spend with Him.
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