Recently I've been dreaming of all the things I'd love to do personally, professionally, just for fun and just for God. I guess this whole coming up to my 25th birthday has kinda got me wondering what I want to do with this life I've been given.
I have a dream of opening a home for victims of sex trafficking. This is my biggest dream and of course the one that seems impossible. This goal of mine was given to me from God, it's too big for me to dream up on my own. I believe that somewhere down the road, this will happen.
I have a dream to live in a big city and write for a television show or a movie or a magazine or newspaper. This dream seems a little more attainable for me. People tell me all the time that they enjoy my writings. But I don't know how to go about making this dream a reality. Plus, the concerns about leaving the unbelievably, amazing support system God has blessed me with in this community and leaving all my little "nieces and nephews" make me want to stay. How do I know what I'm supposed to do? Go after a dream or just be happy with what I have been given?
I have a dream to go back to school. I want to earn a degree in writing/journalism/english. I want to earn a degree in social work and ministry leadership. But how do I go back to school without taking out more loans? How do I decide if loans are going to be worth it? How do I manage to earn this degrees while still providing a roof over my head and food on my table? I am very fortunate to not have children that depend on me but I still don't know how to make this happen. How do I keep my job and go to school for a degree that's not offered online or at night?
I have a dream to have a family. This dream is most seemingly impossible for me. Only God can make this dream come to life. Do I stay where I'm at for this dream to come true? Is moving to a new city going to help this come to life?
Which dream and goal is important? How do I go about achieving these dreams? How do I choose? I feel very trapped in my current situation. Of course I am growing in my spiritual relationship with Christ - which is always good. But my personal and professional lives just feel very stuck. I'm not doing what I love to do. I'm paying my bills, volunteering my time, and enjoying life ~ I just have these dreams and I don't know how to make them come true.
I'm standing at this point in my life with many roads before me. How do I pick which one to take? I can't let fear keep me stuck in this spot, never choosing, never taking risks and always playing it safe. How do I know which road is less traveled?
So many roads, so many options and yet how do I make the decision on which dream to go after?
Baby steps Tamara. I don't believe God tells very many people exactly what,when where etc. But do believe that if we start in a direction he will open and close doors,provide the means and give us what it takes to accomplish the goals we have. As long as you are looking to him for guidance and consulting God's people to help steer you he blesses and honors. Perhaps you need to start with what you are already doing then see how far that can take you in the direction you are trying to go. Maybe list pros and cons of whatever. Of course choosing one path over the other does not necessarily exclude the other path forever.
ReplyDeleteStart with the easiest and just go for. Maybe you're meant to do them all. Just start with one and see where it leads. I can see journalism getting you Iinvolved and learning more about sex trafficking. Just because you leave doesn't mean you can't come back. You don't have dependents right now so now is the time to do something for yourself. I like your writings and yes I'm stalking your blogs. :-)
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